God damn, I'm running on empty here. I have some homework to do but I don't want to do it. Urgh.. I hate school. I just want to drop out and concentrate on rocking out at concerts. That's the life. Not this going to work and going to school bullshit. I mean, we're all going to die anyway? Who fucking cares. Might as well do what you want to do. Despite what you've all been taught or engraved in your head, the concept of "life is worth living/saving" is total bullshit. I mean, come on..? Seriously?! Like thousands of people are born everyday and thousands of people die everyday. Just like religion, the idea of "love" gets in the way of our human instincts. Don't get me wrong, in a lot of ways, I'm glad we've been brain washed to believe that love (or more importantly) "romantic love" exists. Because it is in our nature to want to kill each other. That is a god damn fact. Anybody who debates against that hasn't seen Terminator 2: Judgement Day. That's why men dominate everything. That's why war exists. Violence, rape, and killing. Because we were designed to be like that. It's all science. So, I guess the idea that "love" (or whatever your into) exists grounds us, but it also holds us back, and here's how:
Don't you just want to get up on morning and go.. just go. Go anywhere. Go somewhere. Forget your cellphone. Just go. Don't tell anyone. Have fun. Go, this world was made by men to take advantage of (despite the fact it is the men who keep us enslaved with old, point-less traditions).
I don't know about you, but I would just like to up and go. Have fun. Go to bars, enjoy a rock show, and when I'm close of losing money I'll go up to some gang members (in cities wwwwaaaayyyy far from Laredo) and pay them to shoot me behind a building or an alley (I'd also give them my car, seeing as I won't be using it). Boom! End of story, right? I can say I broke the system. I can say I lived outside the lines. ..but I know I can't cause I'd be dead. Badass.
But you see what I'm getting it, I can't do that.. I can't. Apparently I have some obligation to my family and friends. They tell you "you can do anything you want too", but that isn't true. George Carlin was right when he said, "You either have every right in the world" or "you don't have any rights at all". There is no inbetween. And that's true. I don't have the right to kill you apparently, but I do have the right to scratch my ass. There's no "human rights", no nothing. It's just another way to make you feel special and "loved" while holding some kind of obligation to do what your "loved ones" *cough*system*cough* want you to do.
Anyway, I haven't filled out one of these in awhile:
WHATS YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
HOW BIG IS YOUR BED?
I can fit in it.
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
..nothing, which is fucked up. I guess that's why I wrote such a pissy paragraph that makes no sense at all and I don't even know why I wrote. I should just go to sleep.
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Beans, tortillas, fajitas. Fuck yeah.
WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED?
I don't know.. Jasmin..? I don't really remember, it's Monday.. I don't come to my sense till around 3 in the afternoon.
HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
Haha, fuck you asshole. What the fuck do you think? NICE WEATHER..? No, idiot. It sucks.
WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
OMG.. again with these "last persons" how the fuck do I know you want me to open the cell and look... I don't know when was the last time somebody called.
WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I think, hair or hats. lol.
FAVORITE TYPE OF FOOD?
I like Good Food.
DO YOU HAVE/WANT CHILDREN?
F-U-C-K N-O! NEVER. NEVER. NEVER. N-E-V-E-R!!! I'm so sick and tired of having to explain myself to my friends, teachers, relitives, CDs, cartoons, FUCKING SHIT. I don't want another fucked up verison of me limping around having to go to hospitals every 4 fuck years. AND IF I DIDN'T HAVE A FUCKED UP KID, I WOULD NOT WANT IT ONE ANYWAY! SO FUCK OFF!!!!!!
DO YOU DRINK?
Why yes I do. :)
EVER GET SO DRUNK YOU DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING?
Oh yeah, of course. Infact, during Spring Break, I remember singing "The Perfect Drug" by NIN, and during the instrumental break down of the song I started adding other NIN lyrics to it! IT WAS SO AWESOME. I SHIT YOU NOT. IT WAS FRIGGIN COOL. Everyone was like, "Oh man, that's awesome." Because they fit so well.
..I don't remember the lyrics I added. Nobody does.. I will never be able to do that performance again.. ._.
DO YOU/SHOULD YOU WEAR CONTACTS OR GLASSES?
I should wear contacts so the eyeliner can come out more but I wear glasses instead.
Winter, even if it only lasts 4 days here in Laredo.
HAVE YOU EVER CRIED OVER A GUY/GIRL?
Oh yeah, of course.
LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
..The Prestige last night around 4 in the morning. But it was the last 40 minutes. I guess I'll go with Across The Universe cause I LOVE THAT MOVIEE!!
WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
..what the fuck is a book?
DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS?
I used to. Again later this year that's for sure. It's in my checklist of things to do.
DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS?
Nope, but again, it's in my checklist.
I like all the best movies ever.
FAVORITE COLLEGE FOOTBALL TEAM?
lmfao.. college football..?! lmao, please.. ask me about a real sport.
WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Whining cause I'm bored and sexually frustrated and have a lot of dumbasss shit to do for tomarrow. ..fuck, I need to put gas in the car. I'm on empty. :(
Yes, Mr. Kaser-Gato-Cat-KC-Meow-Little-Man. He'll bite you cause you smell.
DO YOU PREFER DOGS OR CATS?
..hmm. They both leave hair all over the place (hey, just like me), but I am used to KC so I will go with cats.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE?
Yes, yes I have. YEAH I CONTRADICTED MY WHINY PARAGRAPH, SO WHAT, THIS WASN'T SUPPOSE TO MAKE SENSE ANYWAY!! >:/
ARE YOU RIGHT-HANDED OR LEFT-HANDED?
ARE YOU MISSING SOMEONE?
DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS?
ARE YOU HIDING SOMETHING FROM SOMEONE?
Yes. I have some leaked photos of the new Batman movie. I want to show people, but they don't want to see them.. *sigh*
They're no fun.
ARE YOU 18+?
Yeah, I'm 22.
WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?
Art is Resistance Flag. NIN represent B!
DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
OMG.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAAH WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK!!! LMAO, stupid question.
WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
Zune, phone charger, Zune charger, eff yeah.
WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Sometimes, it freaks me the fuck out.
..a hangout? The mall? I'm usually by myself. Well no, I do have my Zune now. *pets the Zune* :)
3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
"Your Honor" by Regina Spektor (Best fucking song in the entire universe. YouTube it, you'll see what I mean.) Fuck that whole album is fucking nuts. (Download it, you'll know what I mean.)
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
..getting everything I want.
ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
..taker. But my teacher called me an artist the other day, so I guess that means I'm a giver?
WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING?
The Zune of course.
FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
Drawings. Defintely my drawings.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
The best color in the world.
WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?
Cellphone, Zune, Keys to the car, backpack, etc.
WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
..something so much better what what I am now. *sigh*
WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 11:11?
I make a wish, in hopes that maybe it might come true.
It's never worked.
THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS?
I dunno, everythings been on the floor lately, I guess light blue?
Oh check this out:
The new Sonic game. I guess he's going to turn into a werewolf in this one. That's pretty random.