Another Pilot Down: The Artwork of George Gonzalez

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

some kind of dispondent feeling


I'm not gonna lie, but lately I have been a such an asshole to some of my friends. I've pissed a lot of them off and thus are staying clear from me. I don't know why I am doing it. I don't know where a lot of this aggression is coming from. The only thing that I do I know is that I am doing a hell of a good job making those around me; avoid me.. and it sucks.

I'm sorry you guys. I don't know why I've just been so angry and depressed lately. I seem to be snapping easier these days. It doesn't even take a lot for me to snap.

Maybe I just miss being on a road and away from here? I had such a good time at my concerts, maybe I'm pissy I don't have that anymore. Maybe it's easier getting by while I am at school. I can function normally like a regular kid my age if I just continuously surround myself with tons of people.

Perhaps that's it. I've stopped “living” dramatically and the only person I really have to talk to is myself, and I can tell you he isn't much of a good friend at all. Urgh.. existentialism is-oh-so great. : /

Again, I’m sorry you guys. You know who you are..


Juan C. Garcia said...

uh, i know it aint me. I mean, i call to see if you want to hang out, but the machine always keeps coming on.
So really, we havent hung out in months

Jorge Gonzalez said...

Yeah, we gotta hang out buddy. You can beat me up in Smash Bros. Brawl since I have apparently just suck at the game.

Oh, that machine. Fuck that machine. Sometimes my cousin would be calling and the ID caller says it's from like the Texas State Troopers and he'd be just using his house phone.

Juan C. Garcia said...

I'll call ya tomorrow, bro.
I might try your cell first tho.