Giggly Thursday (Like Carrie Said)

Today, before I headed off to the disaster that is Last Chance College (A.K.A. LCC), the Kaser Gato decided to have lunch with me. However, it didn't last very long because he didn't really like what I was having.


*sniff* *sniff* "Ew, dad.. these frozen patties smell funny."

First off, yeah, my cat can talk. Second, when I tried to explain to him that daddy is lazy and only had a few minutes to eat before heading out to combat the forces of evil, KC wasn't having it. I sighed, and made a frowny face. Like this --> :'(

"Oh dad, you'll come up with any excuse."


"I'm gunna jump off the counter now."


"Boy, this counter used to be a lot higher when I was a baby."

Alas, I ate my burger alone while KC watched Spring Bteak Nightmares on the E! channel. Yeah, I know. Kaser is weird like that.

So, for those of you who love Rock Band and Nails, I'm sure you've heard by now that an NIN Expansion Pack featuring "March of the Pigs", "The Collector", and "The Perfect Drug" will come out in March! Sounds like fun to me!

Times up for Hollywood! Horray! I here ya!

"Drained"

My new drawing, "Drained" has now been added to both my
DeviantART and my website! Check it out and leave some comments on what you cats think of it.

I had originally started that drawing back in late August and only recently did I finish it. Needless to say, there are a few other drawings from these sessions that also need to be finished up as well. Hopefully I will have them up soon.

Anyway, leave a comment and tell me what you think.

Placebo & Mexicans

lawlz. It's funnier if you know spanish.

Come on, kiss already!

*yawn* Today has been some what of a tireing day. I have been doing a lot of writing and drawing as of late. You might see some new sections opening up soon at my website. I must admit, I haven't really been all there, (if you know what I mean) and I think it'll show with some of my new material. I've also got one drawing currently in the works that tackles a pretty serious issue and I think it's important that I bring some kind of awareness to it. Hopefully I will have everything ready in about 3 or so weeks.

Don't forget, tomarrow in the late afternoon I will finally be releasing my new drawing, "Drained". So, be sure to come back tomarrow to see it.

In the meantime check out this totally awesome photo of Davey and JStar.

omgjimmyurinemarriedwtf

Nobody told me this. Jimmy Urine gets married and I ain't the best man? I feel insulted.

So Lyn-Z is married to Gerard and Jimmy is married to Chantel; hmm.. who thinks Kitty and Steve, Righ? should hook up? I do! :D

Blue Monday

Boy, the new American Gladiator's show is great. I've started seeing them and it reminds me so much of the 90's one. It's like the same thing, only updated! The Gladiator's are still tacky, the same games are all still there, and the people playing still say the cheesiest things! It's so cool. If you haven't seen it, you should. It's an hour well spent for your Blue Monday.

Okay, now for some new artwork updates and news for you cool cats. This coming Wednesday, (January 30th) I will be releasing the new original drawing, "Drained", and on Thursday (February 7th) I will be releasing a new Still-Life painting. Most likely that week after I will be releasing another original drawing that is bound to turn some heads and raise some eyebrows. I'll let you all know when that happens.

I've also been hard at work on several more original drawings as well as a new poem that I have been brainstorming for a few days now. Again, some of these will take time and I will release further details as I get through them.

As of right now, there really isn't any plans for me to draw any portraits. Sorry about that, I know a lot of you really enjoy them. Maybe down the line I will try another, but as of right now I am really focused on finishing up some of my ideas.

Anyway, that's about it. There wasn't any new episode of Sarah Conor tonight, instead it was replaced by the State of the Union address by our ever so fearless leader. *rolls eyes* Lucky for us, this will be the last time he will be saying it. What does suck, is that John McCain might be doing the speech next year. -_-

I wish Hilary and Barak would stop fucking fighting with each other and just join forces god dammit. Oh, well; to quote Captain Jack Sparrow, "That's just politics." : /

Those aren't placebos, honey.

I'll have what he's having.

An Accident

I'm a rocker, trapped in a gimps' body.

I need to get out of here.

She's coming..

So, now that I have this new found urge of wanting to draw more, I have been brainstorming new ideas for drawings and poems. I have thought up some of the best ideas in a long time. A lot of them connect to other works and art that I have done. It's fantastic.

I just need to get them out there now.

Well, my cousin's wedding was nice. Kinda ghetto, but it was good. I managed to score me a shit load of Coke Rewards codes. Holy shit, I am awesome.

Anyway, my dad is pestering me to go with him to the bull riding rodeo tonight at the LEC. Urgh. What do I look like, a cowboy? I could careless for rodeos. With that said, the LEC is going to look pretty shit with dirt all over the place instead of ice. I'd rather stay home and start on some of those ideas, cause I want to see the response from those who actually observe my work.

Oh, I have also been working on some of the Supplemental Content for The Shades of Jorge Gonzalez website. They're pretty informative and some of the character descriptions might open your eyes to just how much deeper my work can be. It also goes deeper in terms of how I feel about myself and the people around me. I will let you all know when those get finished up.

Expect a new drawing in a few days, too. It's a picture I started six months ago, and it's finally going to get finished. So yeah, brace yourself, a new original drawing is coming. I'll be sure to post it up here.

New Portrait Added

Today I spent the entire day relentlessly drawing a new portrait of Heath Ledger as the Joker, and the result can be viewed here. It's also been posted up on The Many Shades of Jorge Gonzalez. The response and feedback seems to be pretty positive. I'll admit though, the scanner really took away a lot of detail from it. The physical drawing looks so much better. The values are well put together. I'm not bragging, it's the damn truth. I went all out on this portrait. It took me all day, like 10 hours non-stop. I dedicate it to Heath Ledger. It sucks that he died. It really bummed me out when I heard the news. This drawing is just a small tribute to him as The Joker, which will no doubt be the best rendition of the character.

I hope you all enjoy it, even if it's a little low quality.

Tomarrow my cousin Adam is going to get married. That is so weird. Boy, times have sure changed. I remember when we were little kids. We'd have all these adventures just like Rugrats. We'd play "Power Rangers" and all sorts of things. Not to mention video games. Oh, those were the days. In our teens we played Power Stone on the Dreamcast and watch Dragonball Z together. Those were the days. Now he's 23 and getting married, and expecting a new born child. Wowsers. To think, he can't even drive car! ..or maybe he does now, I am not sure. I wish he'd talk more to me these days, we seem so distant now. He's a totally different person now, it's weird. I can't even pin-point when exactly we started to drift apart. During get-together's he just gave a simple "Hi" and will occasionally laugh at my antics while playing Guitar Hero 3 or Rock Band. But that's about it. Even though he is expecting a son or daughter of his own, he has been taking care/raising his wife's daughter, Gwen. I feel happy for him. I mean, he seems happy even though he always goes off and hides during the get-togethers. As long as he is happy, I support him.

Pennyroyal Tea

"I'm so tired I can't sleep, I'm a liar and a thief"

You know, ever since I got this 30GB Zune for Christmas I have become more and more custom to downloading full albums. For those you cats who know me, I bought a lot of CDs. I never listened to leaks or offical online leaks like the ones in MySpace, MTV,or VH1. At best I would only download the single. But I got to tell ya, the close you get with your mp3 player, the more it becomes apparent that it is pretty useless to buy CDs. I never, ever, thought I would give up buying the physical copy of an album, but now as the month is going to end, I haven't bought one all month. Even with about 40 dollars in Best Buy giftcards, I still haven't bought a single CD.

Instead, I have downloaded albums. Not that shitty offical download crap like iTunes, or the Zune Marketplace, nor Amazon.com. I mean, actually downloading full albums from mp3 blogs or message boards. It seems anything is in my hands. I also get superior versions of albums too. For instance, Linkin Park's "Minutes to Midnight" album only has 12 tracks, while the Tour Edition of that same album has 15. Also, the Japanese edition of Muse's "Black Holes & Revelations" album comes with a bonus track that wasn't released in North America. Things like that make it much more difficult for me to buy albums anymore. Yesturday, I downloaded two Sonic Youth albums that I had been wanting to buy for sometime now. I got the deluxe editions of both "Daydream Nation" and "Goo". Both records are for sale at over $25 dollars, yet I got them for free.

Doing it this way I save a lot of money and I can easy listen to new bands in just seconds. I downloaded the Amy Winehouse album "Back to Black" and it is fucking great. So, I noticed Best Buy was selling it for $7.99, and I didn't even think of buying it. It is such a fantastic album, but what is the point when I already have it for free? I think I now why people stopped buying CD's. There is no point in waiting for something anymore. Not when it will be avaliable to you for free weeks, if not months, before a release date.

Times are different now. I read articles and stories of how the music industry is going down in flames. How albums by popular pop/hip hop artists are becoming huge bombs even before they get released. I read how a lot of these companies like Universal Music Group, Warner, and Columbia are having to lay off a lot of employee's because resources are low and "the man" is losing a lot of money. Sales figures go down in chunks year after year. Remember when Eminem's "The Marshal Mathers LP" came out back in 2000? In one week that album sold 2 million copies. 2 MILLION COPIES in ONE WEEK. These days, bands, rap artists, and pop stars are lucky they even sell over 600,000 in their first week. Even then that kind of number is rare to see. I think the only ones to go over it last year were Linkin Park, 50 Cent, and Kanye West.

I, like many others, feel it's time for the music industry to burn. I have this sort of mentality where in order to continue we must destroy our old ways and "traditions". In order to evolve we need to get rid of the old. Like all these old men who own this country or Christian's beliefs in God. We need to destroy our old system, which is why I feel it's time for the industry to die.

I had been talking to my friend Tony back in December about this. He didn't like what was going on because it was going to be harder for indie bands or underground bands to get popular and make money. I felt differently. I felt they could still survive and find new buisness models like the ones Radiohead and Trent Reznor did. But he also brought up the point that those artists can afford it. They have already established a name for themselves and have both funds and fans to get away with these kinds of models. I felt differently. I felt a normal band could still make a name for themselves with all these sites like Last.fm and MySpace.

But now I wonder, how can they make money when somebody like me is just going to download their work for free anyway? I was one of those who bought Saul William's album, "Niggy Tardust" because not only was it only 5 dollars, but I knew the money was going straight to him not to a middle man. He is an artist, and I know his heart is in the right place meaning he does music from the heart or what he wants. While it was a good move on William's and Reznor's part to distribute the album this way, and put food on his plate, one thing is for sure, a lot more people such as myself became fans of Saul Williams.

As a lair, theif, and artist myself, I think I would much rather want people to know who I am and what it is that I do instead of people actually buying my artwork or prints. Maybe it's because I am young, naive, and still haven't learned how to start a career yet, that it is easy for me to say this. But, I think my heart is in the right place. I don't draw knowing I will get money in return, nor do I draw to impress anybody. I do it cause I love it (even when it becomes difficult to take). I think, with this kind of mentality, you will always win in the end.

"Sit and drink Pennyroyal Tea"

All You Rock & Rollers

Ain't no party in the sad, sad, city!

I snagged me tickets to go see Ghostland Observatory next month in Austin, Texas! Ow! Yah! It's a CD release party too. I hadn't realized the new disc was already going to come out. Regardless, it's gunna be a non-stop disco and I can't wait. For those of you cats who don't know who they are, Ghostland Observatory are an indie band from Austin Texas. Their sound is a mix of dance, electro-pop, and new wave. They have two albums that they self-released at the moment, with a third one comming in March.

Two months ago, I never even knew about these guys. It was until my friend Fausto introduced me to their second album in mid-December that I got to listen to them. Needless to say, after that I was hooked. They're so awesome and a lot of fun to watch live. Ghostland is the closest thing to really capture the kind of music I would like to make. The frontman, Aaron moves so organicly and has a very flamboyant character to him that will remind you of Freddy Mercury. He sings so well live too, despite constantly dancing around. It's awesome!

The Ghostland Observatory MySpace Page

Rest In Peace, Heath Ledger

Heath Ledger (1979-2008)


*sigh* So disappointing.. I was starting to become a big fan too. : /

He'll be missed. Greatly..

Doctors, Angst, Cobras, and The Smashing Pumpkins

Well, I'm back from the doctors. Boy, it was a long day. I am so tried. I didn't sleep well at all last night. I slept close to 4am only to wake up at 6am. Needless to say, I am pretty pooped. After taking my clothes off, getting owned by an ivy, and laying down on a hard bed while they do scans of your insides, Dr. Carpenter said I was doing good. She did however notice that one of the heart valves that they replaced was getting sort of "swollen". She said it was nothing to be worried about, yet.. but it's better if we catch this early on and not have to do emergency surgery like they did last time. She wanted to see me in 3 months again to see if anything has changed. So, late April, I'll be doing exactly what I did today. :/

I also have to monitor myself and hope I don't get my blood pressure high. Which sucks, cause that can be hard. I mean, it goes up just by listening to my music on headphones or getting excited. It's as if I am not suppose to have fun at all. Which gets me down.

I was talking with my aunt last week when she took me and my brother out to lunch. I was telling her how everybody always shoots down my ideas of wanting to something extravagant. I jokingly told her how I wanted to go to Las Vegas this coming Friday for the weekend to go see theSTART perform at the Beauty Bar. My brother (of course) was like, "that's stupid!" I know I wasn't being serious, but I always felt that if I was normal. If I was able to walk normal like everybody else I would use that to the fullest to do whatever I damn well pleased. I see all this wasted potential in everybody. Maybe, it's because I almost died that I can now appreciate what things more. (Well, not really.) But, I guess.. that if I were to have died that September day, what would they say about me? They'll say nice things I am sure. Totally ommitting how fucked up I fell about my life, religion, politics, etc. But, what would have I said? All my life, I was just controlled. I sat infront a classroom. I wasted my life infront of a computer. Another wasted potential. I do what I am told. Everyday is Exactly The Same, so to speak.

But I dunno, now I want to do a bunch of stuff like I always wanted to do. What's so weird about disappearing for a weekend to go out of state to see a rock band perform? I sold my soul to rock 'n roll along time ago, baby. It's time to act upon that. -_^

*reads over what he just wrote* Ha ha, I sure am corny. Tell me again why I don't have my own TV show? : P

Anyway, last night I missed the second episode of The Sarah Conor Chronicles cause some of the Laredo Bucks players came by to munch on our food. Regardless, I snagged me a ticket to go see Cobra Starship perform at Emo's Austin in Feburary. Should be neat. They're going to pass around glow sticks and encourage all the kiddos to dance. There's also a strobe light, I hear. Ah, good ol' new wave music. *listens to their album*

Oh yeah, why didn't anybody tell me the Smashing Pumpkins released an EP this week called, "American Gothic"? I had to download it yesturday and was completely suprised. Let me tell you this lil' EP is good. Really good! Much better than "Zeitgeist", that is for damn sure. This is a lot closer to the way we remember The Pumpkins. Not as some heavy metal band like in "Zeitgeist". I recommend you download it.

Oh and before I close head over here, to see Saul William's music video for "Sunday, Bloody Sunday". It's really good. I enjoyed it.

Well, I guess that's all for now.

First Day of the Spring Semester

Well, today was the first day of classes for the Spring semester. I had Life Drawing and Painting 1 again. I don't know, maybe it was the cold, gloomy weather or the grey skies, but I felt really displaced. The first days of class aren't usually anything but discussing the rules, syllabus, and all that jazz. However, I felt like an alien. Like if there was no reason for being there. It was sad.

Suddenly there was no point to staying in a classroom again. But alas, maybe it was just the cold weather. After Life Drawing I put on my headphones and started to listen to Placebo's "Without You I'm Nothing" album on my Zune; which mind you, has the overly awesome first track, "Pure Morning". It made me feel a little better as I made the really long walk to the bookstore to buy the Life Drawing book. After that, I went to the Kazen center and just people watched as I listened to the rest of the album and killed time for the Painting class.

I managed to get two Coke-A-Cola bottle caps from messy people who don't like cleaning up after themselves. For those who don't know, I collect the codes from the bottle caps and enter them at MyCokeRewards.com. I could have got more if I really tried, but I decided to go spend the remaning of the hour at the art building.

Oh, yesturday I got to see the premire of The Sarah Connor Chronicles on Fox. I didn't know what to expect. In fact I didn't know anything about it at all, other then it's Terminator related. So anyway, I have to say that the first episode was pretty interesting. At first I was confused as to when the show took place in the timeline. (I'm pretty sure it takes place after, Terminator 2: Judgement Day) But after that, it was pretty cool. I think this show is going to wind up contradicting Terminator 3 and the upcoming movie with Christian Bale, but fuck it, right?

I also didn't mind that they made the Terminator a female, but it did feel like the creators obviously wanted to compete with NBC's The Bionic Woman. The only problem I had with her was that THEY MADE HER EAT! Come on, people! Terminators don't eat. Shit, robots don't even eat. That was obviously just a ploy to make her more human as oppose to a lifeless killing machine. Oh, well. The show seems interesting enough. The next episode is tonight, so let's see if it's still cool.

Well, before I close this I just wanted to say my respects to the Dallas Cowboys, who after a pretty great season, lost to the New York Giants last night. Twas sad. You could literally feel the dissappointment in my dad. While I was always making fun of the Cowboys (or football in general) I secretly did root for them. It would have been nice to see the rematch between the Cowboys and the Packers.

Oh, well. Here's hoping the Packers fucking destroy the Patriots in the Super Bowl. Cause the Patriots suck. They suck, they suck, they suck!

Anyway, I have a doctor's appointment tomarrow in San Antonio. They're going to be running more tests and CAT scans, and.. well.. you get the picture. With that said, I don't think I'll be posting anything tomarrow, but I will the following day. Oh, wells.

Peace, everyone!

Last night, was like Wartime!

So I went to the Laredo Bucks hockey game last night. Let me tell you, it was nuts! The Bucks lost 6 to 2 against the dumb Mudbugs, but that didn't mean that it was a crappy game. For some reason, a little into the 2nd period the lights got screwy in the arena, making half the arena dark and the other with limited light. The jumbotron also got messed up and so did the speakers throughout the arena. Thus, there was no music or commentator. Well after a small delay, the teams decided to continue the game.

It was like that one part of the song "Sugar" by System of a Down, you know the part that goes "No lights?! No Muussiicc?! Just ANGER! I've killed everyone!" Yeah, it was exactly like that. Tons of fights and pentalties from the Bucks. Like crazy fights too, I think James Hebert grabbed one of the Mudbug players while the Mudbug was on the floor and smashed his face into the ice. It was crazy! You take away the jumbotron and the Bucks go psycho.

Them crazy Canadians make a dirt dance floor out of ice I tell you.

I had my Zune with me, which was cool, cause since there was no music or annoying commercials through the speakers, it was easier to listen to my music without it getting mashed in with theirs. Linkin Park provided a good soundtrack to last night. So did Placebo's "Bulletproof Cupid".

So yeah, it was interesting game. It sucks that tomarrow I start LCC again. It's going to be weird. I haven't really driven that much since my heart went batshit crazy last year. I am taking pretty much what I took last semester all over again except for the Math class. Instead I am taking Life Drawing. What sucks about my new schedual is that the classes are longer and on Tuesdays and Thursdays they're spread apart by a lot of time. I think I am going to have like 2 hours inbetween classes. I guess it's good, so maybe I can start drawing again or for doing homework.

Unfortunately, I have a doctor's appointment in San Antonio on Tuesday, thus missing the first day of class for my Tuesdays and Thursdays. *rolls eyes* I'll let you all know how that goes of course. It sounds to be a long day of tests and getting naked and wearing robes and swallowing horrible tasting medicines. *le sigh*

Anyway, before I go check out this website for you Nine Inch Nails fans. It's a very interesting site that compiled a lot of artistic references and visuals that have inspired Trent or have been sampled through his music. It's a very interesting read, especially for those who are like me that enjoy this sort of deep shit and going further down the spiral, as they say. Warning though, it does have some distrubing images. But if you're a NIN fan, or enjoy my drawings, it isn't anything you haven't already seen.

Seeya for now!

Hi, my name is..

..not Slim Shady.

My name is Jorge Gonzalez. I am 22 years old. I don't know how to play guitar. I like to draw. I sometimes draw famous people, other times I draw ugly naked people persons that scare little kids. I love rock n' roll. My favorite frontmen and women are those that are flamboyant and larger than life. I had a heart attack back in September of '07. I have a pet cat named, KC whom I have nicknamed Kaser. I have an LG cellphone that is pretty cool. Trent Reznor is the fuckin' man. I am in a long term relationship with my 30GB Zune mp3 player whom I use 95% of the day. The best beverage in the world is Coca-Cola Classic. Rock Star Energy Drinks are second. In Tyler we trust. I like to dance when I play Rock Band for the XBox 360. I have a lot of feministic views, but I am not conservative by any means. The next phase, new wave, dance craze, it's still rock and roll to me. I consider myself a heretic. Christian fundamentalists scare the living shit out me. I think John McCain needs a dose of perspective. I am slowly losing faith in humanity. I contradict myself a lot. I am a student at the Laredo Community College. I am totally anticipating the new Batman movie, The Dark Knight. Hilary needs to win '08. I'll try and update this journal often. And I guess I am done.

So, tell me about you.